As i was falling asleep last night, the negative thoughts about all of this finally started seeping through. One of my last thoughts before falling asleep (or maybe it was my dream...im not sure at this point) was that I am not going to make any friends down there and that this is the stupidest thing i have ever done.
i have been walking around all day feeling exactly that way.
what the hell am i doing?
I can't pack. I just cant. I cannot put my life into boxes and figure out what i might need and what can wait here for me, and what what stuff i have collected over time that i am willing to trash or donate. i cant.
deep breaths.
I can do this. i can do this and i will be fine.
I knew when i started this blog that i would have days like this, and that is what i wanted to document. this isnt all a cakewalk. i am definitely struggling with some doubts lately. I am definitely letting the negative thoughts take over. I cant let that happen, though. i have to regain control and remain positive.
I am struggling to figure out how to get my rent money to my roommate in Nashville. I should have worked on this sooner but life has done what it does best and gotten in the way, so now she needs the money tomorrow and there is no easy way to do it.
I am sure this is just a temporary glitch in the system. at least i hope it is because this is not okay.
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