just as i suspected

I officially started in the Wildhorse today. I arrived at 9:15 this morning and didn't even look at a clock until 2:15, so I think that speaks volumes about how much I was enjoying the job. I realize that not every day is going to be great, but I think most will be, and that is perfect.

Yesterday I was in the back room at the other job, and the manager came back to talk to me about scheduling. He was kind of ticked because he had done the schedule already and I had training Sunday, so he had to redo things based on me. I get that. I am ticked because my availability at both jobs is that I am not available, yet both jobs have me on the schedule. At any rate, he told me basically that I needed to hurry and get my availability to him as soon as possible, and that it might be that I need to decide which job is more important to me and then cut ties, knowing full well that the other job was the more important one (the way he worded it confirmed that statement.)

I just compared schedules, and technically I can work both jobs this week as my schedules don't actually overlap, but that means that I will have worked at least two weeks straight and that on Friday I will have to be at work at one job at 6am, and will be closing at the other job, which will likely not get me home til 1:30 or 2 am. If I am scheduled at either job for Saturday, I can see that being a serious issue.

I have "health benefits" through job one, however, they aren't full benefits. It is still better than what I would have otherwise, which is nothing. I am supposed to be part-time at job 2 but was listed as full on the schedule. If that is the case, my mind is absolutely made up, but if I am not offered health benefits, I need to decide what to do. I hate job 1. I went for a good three hours before anyone talked to me on Friday morning. When I would ask questions about what I was supposed to be doing, I was getting less-than-helpful responses. Or no reply at all.

I feel like this is pretty cut and dry. I have a job that I love and one that I hate. The one that I love pays me 1.75 an hour more than the one that I hate (and frankly the perks are killer at the one I love, and useless at the one I hate.) The only hold-up is the health insurance thing, but I just looked and found a decent plan for a decent price, and I don't think that killing myself to work these two jobs is worth some medical, especially when I can finish my sub cert and do that on days off at the Wildhorse. One sub day a month will cover my health insurance. Cut and dry, right?

But for some reason I feel a loyalty to job one that is making it very difficult for me to resign. This is weird, especially knowing that there is no return on that investment, since I was told it might be time to cut ties. I don't know. I know that I do not want to work 16 days straight, or longer, quite possibly. I know that I want to work in an environment where I am happy and where people are nice and having fun, and not one in which no one talks to one another. Someone please explain the loyalty thing to me so that I can move past it and quit, because I don't get it.

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One of the best things about this new job is getting to talk to people. Today I was talking to two ladies, and one said that she was from Jersey, to which I of course replied "so am i!" When I asked her what part, she said South Jersey, and I said "so am I!" I asked the name of her town, and she made that "you probably have never heard of it" face and said Franklinville. I about shot through the ceiling I was so excited about that. I said, "AHHH!! I'M FROM CLAYTON!!!" She was not nearly as impressed as I was, but it was pretty cool to me.

I want to try to blog specifically about Friday's lunch and walk because I took some pictures that I would really like to share, but I just keep running out of time and energy. Maybe tomorrow, but if not, then definitely Monday. I want to share about other than work :)